is this the way

over the last few years i have developed an aversion to crowds

i now often get tired/frustrated/annoyed when i find myself within a throng of people and unable to navigate my way through without bumping into half a dozen strangers. worse still, i often end up spacing-out as i navigate my way, unable to cope with a counterflow of people washing past me

this explains why, when c hinted that perhaps we should go and watch the nye fireworks down by the thames, i immediately made it clear that while that would be... fun, no. 150,000 people? out in the cold winter's night?

it also explains why, every time i head down to oxford street during peak hours, i eventually fall exhaustedly onto a seat on the bus on the way home, even if i've spent a mere 15 minutes actually walking on the street or browsing in the shops

no i don't have claustrophobia. but i wish i could learn to like crowds, masses of people, noise and movement. because then life in central london would seem a bit more pleasant

because underneath it all, i need to get out more