anniversaire

lovely people threw me a lovely surprise birthday thing at tavistock square on monday

replete with small but absolutely delicious chocolate cake from pâtisserie valerie

it's at times like these when i wonder what i ever did to merit such a warm touching gesture

as in all honesty, i probably don't deserve it

i've been a crappy housemate and a quasi-non-existent friend for the last few weeks

in the past i hid my problems from everyone else, and in all fairness it wasn't healthy

so nowadays i'm more demonstrative and open

which has some serious drawbacks as well

but nah my life won't fall apart

because i'm made up of more than my flailing heart

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cold wars are the worst

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the entire northern line is shut. the frog decided that walking home would be fun.

it's about time i accept that individual adults make their choices and it is not up to me to judge them

neither should i betray my inner response and what my gut tells me

my heart's saying no but the head's saying yes

i'm surprised i'm still in one piece. maybe i should just go study. now.