email war

i used to think that i was this close to throwing in the towel but apparently not

in fact, i'm incapable of throwing in the towel. goodness knows i've felt it crashing around me quite a few times. but i'm beginning to suspect that i can't actually have a breakdown, that i'm not programmed to be able to have one

i don't know if this is true. and i don't know if it's a good or bad thing. all i know is that shit's been happening and shit's still happening and when i look back i can only wonder what i'm still doing here

responsibility has taken on very different hues