girl from ipanema

want to write and blustery-on about a hundred and one things that have been rushing through my head all night - and all weekend

but it's half past one on a monday morning and i've yet to sort myself out for the week ahead, so what's the point

but then, maybe i can sort myself out here?

i wish that the half-truths spouted could really count for some fact, if only c'est une nouvelle semaine were to hold as much promise in grity reality

so lets see now

* varsity

i'm not freaking out about what is supposed to be thus far the biggest game of my uni rugby playing career, at least not as much as many of my team mates

this is to be expected as i've already played before in matches where i haven't been able to sleep the night before (not helped by high caffeine intake). jc touch rugby was competitive, the pressure's been on before and in the end, without taken any importance or gravity away from the upcoming clash,

it's just a match (come to think of it, so said patey once)

captaincy isn't easy, nor is it natural for me

it used to be though, 10 years ago!

have about 10 varsity-related things to sort out within the next 12 hours. my head's so heavy

* academia

more specifically, overdue homework. enough said. revision's in tatters (actually no it's non-existent), but frankly speaking with rugby having stepped up gear recently i've had to make potentially backfiring choices

the other day,

parents: how are your studies coming along?
me: erm.. it's pretty hard this year (a unanimous sentiment among my coursemates by the way) yeah i'm finding it a bit hard to cope but it'll be fine, there's no way i'm going to fail!

and that's in all honesty

* the amphibian's woes

frankly, the less said about this the better. suffice to say, internet research takes a hell lot of time and energy. so does commuting. thank goodness for bus 31

it's been frustrating me over the past couple of weeks, but this is nothing like the dark days of before. those days are over

* internships

i finally sent off an application the other day. felt overwhelming relief. and now for the next one.

* miscellaneous

laundry, tidying up my room, scheduling, doing an emergency audit of my accounts, keeping in touch with family

i'm abandoning all hopes of ever having a normal social life again (not in the next few months anyway)

ok that's enough sidetracking. back to work