10 days left

how did it ever, ever, ever come to this

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i can't ask for a clearer sign. what i have to do next is blindingly obvious

it is also probably harder than anything i have ever done in my life. give me strength to overcome the inner torment. give me steely will to battle the very emotions that dragged me into this mess in the first place

nothing short of a mission impossible

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sunday is gloomy
with shadows i spend it all
my heart and i have decided to end it all
soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad
i know, let them not weep
let them know that I'm glad to go

- "gloomy sunday"_sarah mclachlan