something stupid

she has black and white eyes
a mind full of vintage squibs
she has black and white eyes
a mind full of cheering lives

she needs something
to keep her feet on the ground
cos when she's flying around
she never wants to come back down
she lost her smile in ’95
when she woke up on the back seat of a studded car
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'think i lost her at 24
when she started to lock herself up behind the bathroom door

all along the white line
she can travel back in time
all along the white line

all along the white line
she can travel back in time
all along the white line

i’m on my way looking up today
never mind if it could be worthing
tuesday flies away

- "black and white eyes"_syd matters


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i did something stupid last night. by right it shouldn't even matter. in the larger scheme of things, it is insignificant, worrying about it is the worst thing i could do right now

but i can also now see why people live for the present, why people are prone to screwing things up in their lives for moments of abandon. everything has something to repress, to restrain, to hold back. because when things that should never see the light of day break out, that's when all hell breaks loose

i am not in a good place at the moment. if i am to be honest with myself, i have just dug an even deeper hole into which i should really stick my silly, obsessive-compulsive, maniac head

thank you to dudley, who in her email the other day told me to "get your head down missy!" - i just wish i could clue my nose to my books. i feel like i may be developping an addictive personality... or not?

Your Personality is 39% Addictive

You don't have an addictive personality - at least, not usually. You can indulge in vices freely, and there's little chance that you'll get hooked.

Do You Have an Addictive Personality?

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