134.38 and bemoaning the lack of status

that is the cost of it all

but no, shopping wrecklessly (what else can you call it; i've bought from topshop, h&m, dorothy perkins and GAP in the last week!!!!) is not all i've been up to

chocolate. chocolate addiction. major, major chocolate addiction

i've relapsed. majorly. and it's not looking good. how on earth am i supposed to maintain my size 8/10, study hard and feel good about myself overall, if i'm addicted to the sugar-high(and low) that is chocolate!?!?! (hear that in a whingey bimbo voice, and realise that i am half-joking. only)

watching satc episodes is helping somewhat - oh no, wait, it's not, in fact it's fuelled my shopping craze. and the scene where miranda gorges on the chocolate cake/brownie that she baked? all i could think was, "i'm feeling your pain, sister!"

i mean seriously, how am i supposed to deal with my current life's issues when mired in a shopaholic/chocaholic.. well, quagmire?

am seeing sarah tomorrow for some serious girltalk therapy. this other thing with the berlinski? is so going to get out of hand, if i don't stop it now. i'm so glad that imh wrote about this... i never thought about what i was getting into. 3 times in a week. i mean, to quote out-of-context from tdwp, "what kind of a blip is that?"

actually, i didn't have to try hard not to think about it. hell, i hadn't had that much fun in ages, i was determined not to be my own killjoy, and besides there was no real need to actually seriously contemplate where it was all going

and how perfect is the timing?? in the sense of the next 3 weeks? everything really happens for a reason

to recap and focus, i am still dealing from the nasty fall-out, i still have a million words to write and a billion words to study in order to pass my exams and get the degree i need to stay on in the crazy city that is london and secure the job...

so why am i doing this? well i guess - ahem - that's just the way i roll


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