"my goodness"

this is so strange, it really is. while it's really really surreal, at the same time it feels real. i'm not making any sense here am i.

but there's one thing that really strikes me.. it just seems so uncomplicated. nothing like what i've been through before. it just seems so simple, and straightfoward, there's no emotional mess or mind games going on.

i'm hoping it is actually this uncomplicated, and that i won't get a slap in the face, so to speak, somewhere down the road.

it was really nice, the surprise. i tried not to let it get to me, but in the end,

mais que sera, sera.