college drop-out

horrible thoughts have started seeping through my head, those along the lines of me finding myself in a different country than where i'm at, come september

i want to believe that i am better than this, i want to be believe that i haven't sunk so low and let it slide so waayyy off course that it has become an irretrievable situation

but i know better than that. i know exactly what the problem is, and i'm ashamed of it