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you know your values and 'shock'-tolerance levels have gone through some alteration when the idea of your flatmate and her boyfriend having sex on a monopoly board belonging to someone downstairs and breaking it in the process doesn't stun you anymore.

i've tried my darndest to get along with all my flatmates (including those downstairs). it's taken me so much effort, it's tiring. when they talk about stuff only british people brought up in britain would know about, it just washes over my head. there are many times i feel left out. i know fully well they're not being exclusive, it's just that they've realised they can't talk to me about stuff i wouldn't know about.

when a popular/famous song by a british band comes on, everyone sings along - except me. they don't always bother to talk to me or make me feel included in their 'localised' discussions, and i realise that i can't, shouldn't, expect them to.

i'm thankful that i can at least hang out with them. and that they're all really nice people. although some of the guys from downstairs are always making sexual innuendos. or pretending to be gay with one another. i used to try not to feel offended or disturbed; now i'm just so used to it that it just washes over my head.

right and wrong doesn't exist for me here; it's become a question of limits - where do i draw the line, when do i feel that i've had enough?

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on saturday i met up with my cousins and hung out with them for the entire day. it was brilliant - they fed me so well. we had the most awesome roast duck at bayswater (at this restaurant called wan lok or something) for lunch. in the evening, we went back to their place in hampstead and had a lovely home-cooked dinner. vegetable soup with saint agur cheese, chicken curry, salmon and stewed beef with rice.

they made me take some leftovers home with me (hey i'm not complaining), so i'm set for the rest of the week. and when jay found out that i'll be going to newcastle next weekend, he insistently slipped me a 20quid note for me to spend on my trip.

i still can't believe i've got such f***ing incredibly cool cousins. i know i owe them big time. so in future i'm gonna be the coolest aunt to their (as yet unborn) kids.

"intra-generational flow of wealth". heh.